I’ve had a few people ask me what is BED, so I thought I’d do a blog post about what it is and how it manifests for me.
So to start what is BED? Well, it’s binge eating disorder. It’s often seen as nit a real eating disorder as the sufferers are often overweight or obese.
Unlike those with bulimia, those of us with BED don’t tend to purge after a binge. So there’s no throwing up, there’s no trying to burn off the calories through exercise, no taking laxatives.
We just binge. Which people see and think we are greedy. But the truth is, while bingeing, we have no control. We lose ourselves in that moment and we don’t control how much we eat or what we eat. Out urge to binge overpowers us.
For me, I eat and eat until I feel sick. There have been times I’ve been sick because I’ve eaten so much, and then I’ve eaten some more.
It’s not something I choose to do. No one would actively choose to binge to the point of vomiting.
But it’s a very real and very serious mental health issue. I’m currently, at the time of writing this post, 4 days since my last binge. That may seem like a tiny amount of time. And in the grand scheme of things, it is.
But for me this is a big deal. I got to the point I was bingeing most nights, and I’ve gained a ridiculous amount of weight.
I’m now trying my best to lose the weight in a healthy way, and to recover from my eating disorder. So every day where I stay in control is a massive positive for me.
I’ve been accessing Beat eating disorder website resources and chat rooms for help and support, and I’ve self referred for CBT to try and help me with the urges and the loss of control.
So to sum up quickly, BED is an eating disorder. Eating disorders can affect anyone regardless of their size or weight. They are serious mental illnesses and need support not judgement.